In the Midst of Chaos

This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hands way up high
We will never say bye.. no, no, no
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people who lost their GRANDMOTHERS
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show becuase
YOU LOVED ME and obviously
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE LEFT TO SAY
If you were with me today face to face


I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD HURT LIKE THIS
AND EVERYDAY LIFE GOES ON LIKE
"I WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU FOR A WHILE"
MISS YOU BUT I TRY NOT TO CRY
AS TIME GOES BY
AND IT'S TRUE THAT YOU'VE REACHED A BETTER PLACE
STILL I'D GIVE THE WORLD TO SEE YOUR FACE
AND BE RIGHT HERE NEXT TO YOU
BUT IT'S LIKE YOU'RE GONE TOO SOON
NOW THE HARDEST THING TO DO IS SAY BYE BYE


AND YOU NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO SEE HOW GOOD I'VE DONE
AND YOU NEVER GOT TO SEE ME BACK AT NUMBER 1
I WISH THAT YOU WERE HERE TO CELEBRATE TOGETHER
I WISH THAT WE COULD SPEND THE HOLIDAYS TOGETHER

I remeber when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I THOUGH YOU WERE SO STRONG
YOU'D MAKE IT THROUGH WHATEVER
IT'S SO HARD TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU'RE GONE FOREVER.


I love you so much Lola. Though I know we were not able to spend as much time, you already had, have and always will occupy a special place in my heart. I will miss the "appears" before I leave your room, the jokes and the kwentos. Maybe I did expect you to live longer, but I don't blame you for choosing to leave. You are in a better place and I am happy for you. Till we see each other again. I LOVE YOU.

Jeanne


* P.S. After a year and a half, I am finally able to let my feelings out.